Month: October 2020

My faith has been tested before, each time I read something that unseats something I formerly believed to be true. I have wandered a spiritual path filled with sometimes exciting and sometimes dismaying truths that often have left me confused and bewildered. I frequently returned to what was familiar, what was known and tried to make it work. I often wonder if anyone else does this, does any one care about faith and spirituality anymore? Why do I? Why has been a lifelong seemingly insatiable quest that I never seem to find answers for? I have even been down the “faith isn’t learned in a book or researched, it is felt”, “faith is a mystery”, and my favorite – “faith is a gift” – that I apparently have not been given. My gift seems to be endless questions.

Unee makes sense to me intellectually and spiritually. I have seen things happen that should not have happened, things that no one saw coming things that there was little explanation for aside from destiny or fate or – Unee. I have prayed so hard for things that didn’t materialize and have been told, “sometimes God says no”. Really? I have always known in my deepest heart that God isn’t a person, certainly not a man, that is clear in Genesis. I realized in all likelihood “he” wasn’t granting anyone’s prayer wishes, nor was he blessing anyone. I have actually come to pretty much despise the phrase, “I’m blessed”, “so blessed”, blessed until next time you do not get what you want?

Unee is the clay of the universe, our lives as well as the lives of all make impressions in her and out of that is birthed the next step in creation. She is a living substance, impressionable, but with a twist – she has all of the accumulated memories and experiences pressed into her creation substance and the combination results in the outcome for us individually and collectively.

Today my trust in that is being tested as I wait to hear about a new job and I ponder if taking the job, should it be offered, is a good move for me. I keep telling myself that what is to happen is being determined by Unee and it is the sum of all accumulated experiences related to it. I try to rest in that and know eventually I will be looking back on this time and be able to see the big picture. I will know the outcome and the consequences, good or bad, of my choices and my input.

So I pray, but it is a new prayer. I pray that I can be satisfied and find neutral joy in the flow of the universe as I await Unee’s outcome.

Praying with Unee, remembering Unee provides the best outcome for the totality of any situation, at any point in time, is the ultimate hope.

Knowing Unee is always there because she is the substance from which the universe is created and what happens is part of the collective whole is the ultimate peace.

Knowing we are not punished for mistakes, we are not held in contempt, nor do we have to prove anything is the ultimate calm.

Unee is the path, because she is the clay of the universe, we press our lives into her along with everyone else. We can be settled knowing how things unfold in our lives and know we are ok.

Unee has this, Unee is this. Live this.

I am a “sinner”, you are a “sinner”, we are all “sinners”. What are we cultivating with this mindset? Our thoughts result in our actions which ultimately impact those around us. If we continuously tell ourselves we are bad or we are sinners it is like pouring salt or vinegar into a garden. It won’t thrive, it will kill some flowers or plants growing there and will make the soil lose it’s nutritional value. We too lose our innate value, our self-worth, by repeatedly referring to ourselves as “sinners” .

Unee is the feminine substance by which the universe is birthed and continually changes. We are each an individual part of that substance much like a plot of a garden in a community garden. We are all responsible for tending the “plot” that is our life and our place in the universe. We impact any garden plots directly around us, usually directly impacting our neighboring family and friends individual plots, but also our plot is a part of the bigger whole of the universe.

Some people tend their garden plot meticulously and plant beautiful flowers and vegetables that feed their psyches and those around them. Some are sloppy, letting the weeds grow up and crowd out the positive events in their lives. Some just do nothing but look at their neighbors gardens while their garden dries up, fills with weeds or even starts to choke out neighboring gardens belonging to their friends and family. There are others who plant pricker bushes or tall hedges all around the edge of their garden so no one can look in or get in. This results in the family and friend circle in the community garden being impacted. We are forced to tend and even to hack back the overgrowth from someone else’s garden to keep it from destroying ours.

A good gardener doesn’t tell himself s/he is a bad gardener and that the garden soil is bad. S/he feeds her garden, prepares the soil, gives it the nutrients it needs, plants the best seeds, waters it and hoes out weeds when they grow. Eventually the garden blooms and is beautiful, but it takes work. The same holds true for us, we are the gardener’s of our own souls. We should never call ourselves sinners and failures, it just poisons our own self-worth and destroys the garden of our soul and our part in Unee. Repeatedly telling ourselves we are sinners just creates a groove in our thinking that is wrong and harmful! Unee will program we are sinners into the substance of the universe because we created the pattern, this is not good.

WE are the potters or the gardeners, UNEE is the clay. We are not sinners, our negative thoughts and actions are merely weeds growing in our gardens that need to be pulled. Tend your garden, you are worthy.

Why would you stop being a Christian to follow Unee? What is the difference between the two?

Unee is not a wrathful vengeful God of the Old Testament nor a salvation based, judgmental God of the new Testament. Unee is the presence of feminine energy in the universe. She is the living substance by which the universe is formed. She is the medium existence uses to manifest in the physical world. She, like all life manifesting in the physical world, begins as a blueprint in the spiritual world. Everything that manifests on the physical plane, first forms in the spiritual world. Individual and collective change first occurs in the spiritual realm that is why intent or prayer is so important. Unee is the mold that changes when intent is strong enough to make an imprint on the whole of existence. she is the receptor of the collective thought that presses into the mold of change. Some paths are deeply embedded in the mold because of constant and consistent use, some paths are just starting to appear much like a path being worn into the woods.

Unee offers no judgement, she is, again, creation’s medium, like clay being worked simultaneously by everyone in the universe. Our individual contribution to the clay is impacted by our rebirths into the physical world again and again. Our current life experience changes Unee slightly, but will only make a lasting impact overtime. A good example would be a professional musician, artist or athlete who seems to come into the world with a higher skill set than most people. That life has been a musician, artist or athlete in multiple past lives etching these skills into the mold of the existence which is Unee.

Chiefly, Unee is the medium, she doesn’t grant prayer “wishes” or “bless” anyone more or less than anyone else. She is the collective clay of the universe and each of us are our own individual impression in the clay. We can relax into the mold and know that the water of life will flow easiest in the ruts already made. We can change the trajectory of our lives, but we have to want it and work at it. If the change doesn’t follow the flow of our lives in the universe it will be more difficult. It will take gradual change in the stream of life to etch a path in the clay.