Tested Faith

My faith has been tested before, each time I read something that unseats something I formerly believed to be true. I have wandered a spiritual path filled with sometimes exciting and sometimes dismaying truths that often have left me confused and bewildered. I frequently returned to what was familiar, what was known and tried to make it work. I often wonder if anyone else does this, does any one care about faith and spirituality anymore? Why do I? Why has been a lifelong seemingly insatiable quest that I never seem to find answers for? I have even been down the “faith isn’t learned in a book or researched, it is felt”, “faith is a mystery”, and my favorite – “faith is a gift” – that I apparently have not been given. My gift seems to be endless questions.

Unee makes sense to me intellectually and spiritually. I have seen things happen that should not have happened, things that no one saw coming things that there was little explanation for aside from destiny or fate or – Unee. I have prayed so hard for things that didn’t materialize and have been told, “sometimes God says no”. Really? I have always known in my deepest heart that God isn’t a person, certainly not a man, that is clear in Genesis. I realized in all likelihood “he” wasn’t granting anyone’s prayer wishes, nor was he blessing anyone. I have actually come to pretty much despise the phrase, “I’m blessed”, “so blessed”, blessed until next time you do not get what you want?

Unee is the clay of the universe, our lives as well as the lives of all make impressions in her and out of that is birthed the next step in creation. She is a living substance, impressionable, but with a twist – she has all of the accumulated memories and experiences pressed into her creation substance and the combination results in the outcome for us individually and collectively.

Today my trust in that is being tested as I wait to hear about a new job and I ponder if taking the job, should it be offered, is a good move for me. I keep telling myself that what is to happen is being determined by Unee and it is the sum of all accumulated experiences related to it. I try to rest in that and know eventually I will be looking back on this time and be able to see the big picture. I will know the outcome and the consequences, good or bad, of my choices and my input.

So I pray, but it is a new prayer. I pray that I can be satisfied and find neutral joy in the flow of the universe as I await Unee’s outcome.

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Praying with Unee

Praying with Unee, remembering Unee provides the best outcome for the totality of any situation, at any point in time, is the ultimate hope.

Knowing Unee is always there because she is the substance from which the universe is created and what happens is part of the collective whole is the ultimate peace.

Knowing we are not punished for mistakes, we are not held in contempt, nor do we have to prove anything is the ultimate calm.

Unee is the path, because she is the clay of the universe, we press our lives into her along with everyone else. We can be settled knowing how things unfold in our lives and know we are ok.

Unee has this, Unee is this. Live this.

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Why calling yourself a “sinner” is bad, very bad

I am a “sinner”, you are a “sinner”, we are all “sinners”. What are we cultivating with this mindset? Our thoughts result in our actions which ultimately impact those around us. If we continuously tell ourselves we are bad or we are sinners it is like pouring salt or vinegar into a garden. It won’t thrive, it will kill some flowers or plants growing there and will make the soil lose it’s nutritional value. We too lose our innate value, our self-worth, by repeatedly referring to ourselves as “sinners” .

Unee is the feminine substance by which the universe is birthed and continually changes. We are each an individual part of that substance much like a plot of a garden in a community garden. We are all responsible for tending the “plot” that is our life and our place in the universe. We impact any garden plots directly around us, usually directly impacting our neighboring family and friends individual plots, but also our plot is a part of the bigger whole of the universe.

Some people tend their garden plot meticulously and plant beautiful flowers and vegetables that feed their psyches and those around them. Some are sloppy, letting the weeds grow up and crowd out the positive events in their lives. Some just do nothing but look at their neighbors gardens while their garden dries up, fills with weeds or even starts to choke out neighboring gardens belonging to their friends and family. There are others who plant pricker bushes or tall hedges all around the edge of their garden so no one can look in or get in. This results in the family and friend circle in the community garden being impacted. We are forced to tend and even to hack back the overgrowth from someone else’s garden to keep it from destroying ours.

A good gardener doesn’t tell himself s/he is a bad gardener and that the garden soil is bad. S/he feeds her garden, prepares the soil, gives it the nutrients it needs, plants the best seeds, waters it and hoes out weeds when they grow. Eventually the garden blooms and is beautiful, but it takes work. The same holds true for us, we are the gardener’s of our own souls. We should never call ourselves sinners and failures, it just poisons our own self-worth and destroys the garden of our soul and our part in Unee. Repeatedly telling ourselves we are sinners just creates a groove in our thinking that is wrong and harmful! Unee will program we are sinners into the substance of the universe because we created the pattern, this is not good.

WE are the potters or the gardeners, UNEE is the clay. We are not sinners, our negative thoughts and actions are merely weeds growing in our gardens that need to be pulled. Tend your garden, you are worthy.

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Unee vs. Christianity

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Why would you stop being a Christian to follow Unee? What is the difference between the two?

Unee is not a wrathful vengeful God of the Old Testament nor a salvation based, judgmental God of the new Testament. Unee is the presence of feminine energy in the universe. She is the living substance by which the universe is formed. She is the medium existence uses to manifest in the physical world. She, like all life manifesting in the physical world, begins as a blueprint in the spiritual world. Everything that manifests on the physical plane, first forms in the spiritual world. Individual and collective change first occurs in the spiritual realm that is why intent or prayer is so important. Unee is the mold that changes when intent is strong enough to make an imprint on the whole of existence. she is the receptor of the collective thought that presses into the mold of change. Some paths are deeply embedded in the mold because of constant and consistent use, some paths are just starting to appear much like a path being worn into the woods.

Unee offers no judgement, she is, again, creation’s medium, like clay being worked simultaneously by everyone in the universe. Our individual contribution to the clay is impacted by our rebirths into the physical world again and again. Our current life experience changes Unee slightly, but will only make a lasting impact overtime. A good example would be a professional musician, artist or athlete who seems to come into the world with a higher skill set than most people. That life has been a musician, artist or athlete in multiple past lives etching these skills into the mold of the existence which is Unee.

Chiefly, Unee is the medium, she doesn’t grant prayer “wishes” or “bless” anyone more or less than anyone else. She is the collective clay of the universe and each of us are our own individual impression in the clay. We can relax into the mold and know that the water of life will flow easiest in the ruts already made. We can change the trajectory of our lives, but we have to want it and work at it. If the change doesn’t follow the flow of our lives in the universe it will be more difficult. It will take gradual change in the stream of life to etch a path in the clay.

Neutral joy

The ultimate answer lies in the state of neutral joy. This is the state where Unee resides, a constant recalculating to modify and adjust to attain balance and neutral joy. It is a state where we can be pleasantly surprised, hardly disappointed and live freely with limited expectations.

Here we become free of the preconceived and varied expectation surrounding what it means to “love” and to be “loved”. We can free ourselves of the unattainable expectation to love everyone- which is impossible.

We can live in a state of neutral joy where life becomes easy, we align with Unee and truly live.

To praise or not to praise that is the question

Not to praise.

Unee is not impacted by praise or lack of praise. She exists, she flows, she treats all equally, no one is blessed, no one’s prayers are answered, no one’s prayers are unanswered. We need to meditate, release our expectations, and acknowledge that the flow of Unee is available to us. We need to tune with her much like we tune a musical instrument. Calm, peace, harmony all are indications we are in alignment, disruption anger, fear, depression means we are out of alignment.

We can walk in nature, quietly, we can be conscious of what we consume for food, but also for entertainment. Flooding our minds with violent images or disquieting discussion such as the news media just pushes us out of alignment with ourselves and with Unee. Why would we want to do that? Excess stimulation just causes unease and ultimately disease.

There are people that are struggling to survive in the world, people with terrible diseases, people in poverty. It is complicated to address, are they paying a karma debt and have they chosen to experience this in this lifetime? Or is it our karma debt to ease their distress? Both depending on our circumstances and theirs. To start, perhaps we can see a better world, see unity and ease and the collective will change. Perhaps we can do what we can when we are called to do so, then we know we are in alignment with Unee.

You don’t have to ever worry if Unee is listening, she is always, present. She always looks for harmony and peace in the world and using that as our home base will change us and change the world.

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Honestly, just unique spirituality that is real

The Temple of Why. I thought it was a Druid temple, but what does it mean to be a Druid? Why look back and try to re-create that which is gone? Why keep looking back to define spirituality for today? Everything has changed, life, living, expression of faith, society. Why do we think looking back to solve what we need now works? Dead Gods and Goddesses carrying so much baggage and weight with so much attachment.

We have to free ourselves of the connotations around spirituality.

The Temple of Why was started because I began to question everything I thought I knew. Everything I accepted because someone told me and I believed them, everything I thought I should believe because it was a long established belief. The Temple of Why, a sacred space dedicated to Unee. Unee is the emerging feminine energy of the universe. She is accessible to those who seek her, but in a new way. She won’t “bless” you because she treats everyone the same, she won’t “grant” your prayer requests, because we are her co-creators. We have to take responsibility for the our actions and the impact we have had on others.

What Unee is is the hidden flow that we can resist or merge ourselves with, that is where truth is, that is where hope is and that is where peace resides. Beggars prayers won’t work here because they never did, looking or claiming to be blessed by God doesn’t work here because it. never. did. If you still believe that you have to ask your self why, why does a just God grant some prayers and not others, blesses some and not others, provides for some and not others? We have to recognize we are co-creators, we unite with Unee and propel ourselves in alignment with her, the ebb and flow of the universe.

How? You already know, by being in touch with yourself, what is true is the kingdom of God, of Unee, IS within. We all know when our gut tells some something is right or wrong, we have forgotten to listen and, worst of all, to trust ourselves. We need to relearn to be in touch, in alignment with ourselves, each other and the Earth.

I am conscious of my being in the flow of Unee in my life and grateful for being in alignment.

May you be conscious of the flow of Unee in your life.

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Wounds we all carry

We all are wounded, we carry wounds from past lives, we are wounded in this life and create wounds in others. What happens with wounds? They heal just like any injury, unless we keep picking at them, opening them up again. Why would we do that? If we have a cut, a deep one even or a broken bone, we don’t keep poking at them making them worse, we let them heal.

Why don’t we do that for our emotional wounds? Why do we like to revisit them, rethink painful moments, hash them over getting ourselves all upset again. We should let our body and Unee heal us, sew ourselves back together and move on knowing we can heal.

Unee balances everything out in the Universe, we don’t have to worry about getting even or getting our revenge that just creates more karma for us. Let your mind heal, your heart heal as you do your body. Unee will balance the rest.

Sacred Wells of Ireland

I became obsessed with the sacred wells of Ireland after my first visit there. The first well we visited was St Brigid’s well in Liscannor. I researched St. Brigid’s Well as a part of our planned journey to Ireland, but at the time I was unaware it was one of many wells dedicated to Brigid. I was overtaken by the aura of the site, the wildness of Clare combined with the simplicity leaves one stunned at the site of the Holy Well. You can feel the presence of all those who had come before, all those who left prayer cards, pictures, poems and candles in the hopes their prayers would be answered by Ireland’s great Goddess.

You become aware of the great devotion the Irish people have to the wells and the entire site takes on a sense of the sacred that is palpable. You want to believe what those who visited before you believed, you want to feel the intensity of faith they had. The beauty and the devotion are intoxicating.

The Sacred wells were first used by the Celts in the belief that certain wells could cure certain ills. The purity of the water becomes an object of the devotion and it is so present and captivating. Visitors would dip pieces of cloth called clooties in the well and place it on the ailing part of the body. The clootie would then be tied in a nearby tree and as it dried and deteriorated, the illness was supposed to fade away as well.

After St. Patrick brought Catholicism to Ireland the devotion to and belief in Brigid and the sacred wells never diminished. The Church incorporated the custom into the body of the devotion in Ireland and Brigid the great Goddess now became St. Brigid the humble converted servant. The Church couldn’t break the Irish peoples devotion to her so they diminished her, raised St. Patrick to a higher level and conquered Ireland. Her legend and that of the Tuatha de Danann continues on in Ireland to this day. The beauty and the mystery of the wells carries on because they are awe inspiring and the sense of the sacred they embody doesn’t fade.

There are 3,000 Holy Wells in Ireland, we have visited 14 of them to date. Each has a unique personality, each well mapped for our journey a sacred quest. The adventure has turned into a mission bringing more family and friends into the trek. We have climbed hills in the pouring rain, crossed muddy fields, traversed grave yards and talked to many cows along the way. Our adventure continues, I will post more photos of other wells as time goes on.